i can hear it

wow, i can actually hear my head talking and reasoning my heart out !!
the head is really actually psycho-ing the heart to get the hell out of believing in something that is not coming out into anything at all. (duno if i make any sense here, no i dont think so, but i have to jot this down for some uncanny reason)

but yea, the moment my heart starts feeling it again, the head switches on its mode and tries to fluff away that feeling of pain by soothing it as if with tinkerbell's magic dust and says its not gona do u good in believing in that, get real...

its as if im stepping aside as a third party witnessing all these stuff happening between my head and my heart! wots wrong with me? shitters, am i dislocating my soul from my body already? arghhh...

the head keeps telling the heart, "its not gona work out. u are better of alone. period."

and the heart believes it with a heavy sad feeling dawn upon it, and say "yes i know, but i cant help it"

the head, "then i will have to remind you constantly until you actually believe it"

god, imma goin bonkers!